my mother's unhappiness

I would like to send my sincere thanks to you – after the seminar I was calm and happy.  Shortly after though I was aware I had some agitation and upset coming up, so immediately listened to a couple of the meditation CDs and eventually some answers came to me. My mother was ashamed of her pregnancy with me, she resented being pregnant late in life, she resented my father and her life hugely.  I felt responsible for my mother's unhappiness and left home as soon as I could at 16 to give her a freedom so she could leave my Dad.

I am a very positive person and genuinely happy and grateful for my life - I am resilient too.   However, I have noticed how sometimes things seem really hard to do, and how I sabotage myself quite regularly!  I have constantly been reading self help books and going to seminars, workshops for the past 5 years to peel away the layers and I always learn something.

I have just discovered that the sluggish, push up hill and hopelessness I sometimes feel is actually resentment!  Subconsciously I have resented so much in my life I cannot believe how much, no wonder I have been tripping myself up!
They say when the subject is ready the teacher arrives!  Certainly did for me.  Thanks. MM QLD